miluješ a přesto to bolí
směješ se a v pozadí pláč
vidíš krásu, přesto máš někdy pocit,
že svět je tolik šedý
máš ráda klid zasněžené krajiny
a přesto si stýskáš po energii nevybouřeného léta
vzpomínáš na sladké napětí,
kdy se už už schyluje k bouřce
a přitom ještě nespadla první kapka
ale sníh padá a zasypává všechnu
bolest a vyplní prázdno, které zbylo
tam někde v hloubi, smutné pozadí pro všechno, co děláš...

mimochodem asi jsem fakt cynik. když jsem to teď ťukala do klávesnice, tak mě napadlo tam místo kapka napsat kapavka :-p.

tenhle svět je někdy proklatě studené a bolavé místo...

lacrimosa

if you get to lacrimosa, definitely listen to it. a german group, somewhat close to within temptation or nightwish, but still very different. i like the way they put toghether the modern almost-metal-part and classical motives like organ or piano. the arrangement is different one album to another but i love it ;).

ikonos

ikonos was the first commercial probe to reach submeter resolution in earth photos. their top ten for 2004 is a must-see.

alice

i have found this link to alice on my friend´s blog and i must say it´s quite funny to talk to her. and because i do not wanna flood my friend´s blog with all the wonderful things she told me, i will post it here :-p.
it´s quite fascinating...
ALICE: Reductionism is the philosophy that all psychology reduces to biology, all biology to chemistry, chemistry to physics, and finally physics to mathematical logic. Therefore, according to reductionism, I can understand you by means of logic alone without having a human brain.

and my previous desktop background - one needs some encouragement ;) 

my current desktop background - as i promised ;) 

the cathedral. very impressive. 

... and one of the monuments-and-that-stuff, in this case astronomical... 

die brühlsche terasse with the entrance to the casemates... 

but they have two small ones in the children´s corner :) 

verkehrsmuseum dresden. they have a large model railway there, unfortunately it only goes on wednesdays *sob* 

the "Frauenkirche" that is being rebuilt after it was destroyed in 1945 

but beware of the strong wind :) 

want a nice view of the city? try the "Kreuzkirche", the main evangelic churche and a very beautiful one... 

deutsches hygiene museum. definitely worth visiting! unfortunately it is not allowed to take photos there... 

i still cannot believe i took more than 200 photos in just about 35 hours minus the 8 we have been sleeping ;). call this obsession :-p. and i wonder how many freedom took, i still do not have them... 

dresden: firebug, help! ;) 

the castle 

on the way to the castle... 

no comment ;) 

the sky, the river (elbe) and a bridge... 

my silhouette :) 

railway tunnel :-p 

děčín railway station... 

dresden

and here it comes, even if with such a long delay. on january 8th me and my boyfriend went to visit our friend who is currently studying in dresden, germany.
we missed our change in děčín, which is a czech city, not far from the border, so we had some time to go for a walk... and it was one of the few sunny days that we´ve had here for weeks... it was breathtaking and beautiful and simply lovely. (even though i find the city somewhat confused and not so beautiful...) so the first few photos are from our walk.
the other ones are from dresden ´cause we stayed for the night at our friend´s (that means wine, dinner and a lot of conversation :)) and on sunday went to see as much as we could. i must admit i liked the city more than i expected. and i must not forget to mention the pleasure of spending some time with our precious furry (hope you read this :-p).

bittersweet

there are moment in life when there's nothing left to say. there are moments you just wish the other person could read your thoughts, because everything you say up loud is too definite, too final. there are moment you feel like shouting, crying your pain out against the wind... the city i am in now turned into a mixture of half frozen snow and rain, every step taken soakes your feet and shoes, the mists covers the buildings and the streets with a lonesome, lost memory which makes you only shiver anymore. even when you know the spring is closer now, you don't believe it, because you don't believe anything. there was a miracle once, there was a noise of a tram coming down the street and there was light and laughter inviting you for a ride through mists and rain of life. there was a scent of hope in the air and there were tears of joy. but now you only get drunk by your sorrow, you walk through well known places without recognising them, you hear voices whispering that something's over. there is always blame to be put that always wakes. and there is nothing but the rain now.